School has started and its now even nearing the dawn of O lvls. I really wish there were much more time than now to prepare for the upcoming prelims, which is like 10 days later.
I think I should be able to do pretty fine this time round, provided if I'm able to follow closely my personally calibrated "ultimate" time-table.
Well, I believe most of you would have noticed the ultra long post previously. It doesn't quite carry any meaning unless you try and look at the bigger picture, reading it differently.I had my reasons for doing so and I did spent quite some time crafting it and making what I want to try express to look as hidden as possible. I succeeded. I Bet no one that I told to about of the "key" to the puzzle had been able to de-code the message.
Good for me, cos its meant to be like this, but I guess its pretty much pointless now already. I'd already know what I need to know about the truth and now, its time to move on.
Its a good lesson learnt to better communicate across properly to anyone and not always just assuming things to be as it is. It certainly sucks a lot to realise you've always been waiting and hoping for the wrong reasons than the right ones.
Now I really am convince that it definitely pays to be observant and thoughrough with your surroundings, and one day you will find out about what you never thought could be true. Though, there are really many things I don't understand of but I believe all of these could have been avoided only if it was communicated just right from the start.Hurt? Well, definitely yes. This kind of laceration can't really be contained, if you know what I'm talking about. Seems like this kind of things, always ends up like this for me.
C'est La Vie - everybody lies.
Anyways, I've been thinking quite a lot about stuffs and got my thinking straight. Since whatever that is, is the case, then letting go will be the best. No room for grudge and resentment but I'm not sure about guilt, its beyond my control. However, judging from what has been so far, I think guilt shouldn't be a problem for you. At the end of the day, we do not want to force happiness yea?
What goes around comes back around though.
Here's wishing the best for your desires =)
Peace
25 more days!
