Farewell - Hiatus

I guess with the title,


This only leaves me to explain my rationale for the Good-Bye..

I've been a faithful observer and tracker of most of my readers, which is what makes up my readership. Ever since school started and it was only me self-indulging in my own thoughts or so to speak my philosophy, or even fantasies if you will.

As a result, readership dropped from averaging of 42 unique readers/day to around 7-10 unique readers/per day.

What changed?

Well for one thing, its like self-entertaining. Its like asking a question and answering it yourself. Things will be much better if I only archive the 'diary' inside my comp.

Next, I think there isn't much of any appealing stuffs for me to update on and school life always remain about the same. So.. Same old boring stuffs everyday or even worst than boring. Last thing you want huh?

Next, one of my post's purpose is to really portray some sort of hidden agendas to different individuals. Everyone's suppose to feel different after reading because of the different interactions. Sometimes people do catch it but some jump to conclusions without even reading properly.

However, since one of my resolutions is to clear myself away from conflicts. This is something I have to stop. I'd rather have a chat than having miscommunication in the end, even though I don't think "chatting" will be any better. Rarely people chat with me and I don't really enjoy slowing down others either.

Finally, the very obvious point. I bet some of you are already thinking about it in your head.

"Who the hell Gerald thinks he is? Talking like he have tons and tons of supporters. As if his post is that profound to be that manipulative. All he wants is some attention. OHH Get a Life Please?"

Well, I don't blame you. Because to be frank, I will most likely be having that same thought too. I'm a cynic and somewhat critical person. My mind just starts to find fault with everything it can see, with anything..

Which brings me to the next point...

Arrogance? Good for you if you've never been told off wrong by me. Though I'm not that straightforward to everybody, I think I give the impression to others that I like to prove people wrong.

One such common person I've found, Bryan Liang. My new parter in class! Very Good company around, though he's really clear cut straight forward with everybody.

Well . . . I think thats really sufficient for the elaboration. I can go on and on but it defeats the purpose.

So long, Good-Bye..

Whats the point?

Something did set me thinking through whats the meaning or point of everything you ever hear, view, or experience before.

Since you already know. When there is a beginning, no matter what there will be an end. Both of them comes together and without an ending , there will be no point for the word "beginning".

Do you see it?

If there's not a word "stop", there won't be a point for the word "start" as well. They co-exist together to give each extreme its own meaning.

And you always hear " All good things come to an end", then what good there is? If there is an ending for everything, then there will never be a good ending. Because "Good" and "End" just doesn't come together. Its like saying someone is ugly and goodlooking at the same time. Its just plain oxymoronic.

I've thought through it all and my conclusion is..

Without an afterlife or eternal if you will, added to the equation.
What matters is only what you've done, experienced or left behind after you die, in this lifetime.

Which in turn is ultimately meaningless, because if afterlife or eternal is taken out of the equation, you just disappear into thin air. And sooner or later, everybody disappears.

Question is, since people already know there will be an end. Why do mothers still give brith to children? Why do people still enter into relationships? Why would anyone bother making money to survive, since you're gonna die anyways.

OR has society deluded us into believing, if you have made preparation for the future then you won't have to worry about life.

What is your life all about? Is it all about studying, working, knowing people?

Lets just say If you've got everything in the world, all the riches, everything that you will ever need.

What will you continue doing?

Will you just sit and wait with yourself or your love ones to the day you die? Either way of waiting will be meaningless if you can see it.

I BET 95% of you will have "don't know" as your answer!
(thats if afterlife and eternal is taken out of the equation)

Since life's already that meaningless, whats the point of being afraid to try new things or start new things?

I didn't post this because of the video, if you're wondering.
I used the video because of the post.

Now, New Year don't seem to hold much of any significant huh?


And you Now ask!

"then why don't you kill yourself and die, if you think life's meaningless?"

Thats because I still have doubts to doubt this doubt..

The Power of Focus

Hey Guys!

This will once again be another short update for the week!

I think I've brokethrough the limited capacity of mine to handle stuffs and tasks. I've been cramped with homeworks and stuffs. Getting irregular amount of sleep now, very frequently. BUT I don't feel burned out at all!

I thanks the holidays that made me able to handle the sleeping issues well.

Thats for handling it mentally.

However, physically I have to admit I'm not doing that welll. Down with flu - Headaches, Sore throat, Nose block and fever. Not been taking Vitamin Cs nowadays because its finished and its easy for me to fall sick. Falling sick now will really be the last thing I want.

Got back my Emath and Chem tests results! I did not bad for both but I believe it could have been better!

For Emath its a 59/80 and Chem 20/30

Not distracted this year really as compared to the last.

Last mid-year, because of some stupid conflict resolving and thinking about getting involve with someone relationally, I wasted hell a lots of time rationalising and reading between the lines. I still remember drifting away from lesson and day dreaming all the while in class. This was after the 1st quarter of last year, around april - may period?

Came to think of it, its dumb and it only ended up getting myself hurt. For conpensation, it took me lots of hardwork to catch up with the syllabus of those essential subjects. It did worked out somehow, if you're wondering.

By the way, any mature person with a right mind will know that getting involve with anyone you're working with together or in this case associated in the same organisation together will make completely no sense at all. Either things gets ugly or its happily ever after, I beg to differ for the latter.

However, we're also taught to never wait for perfect conditons to come, because there will never be one!

SEE!? How different truths can contradict each other that easily? So really, "waiting for the right time" is a very common answers everytime we get or give to excuse ourselves from choosing to accept or reject some realities. As we are all unsure of what choices we decide on, would later regret us.

So this year . . .

One of my resolutions will really be trying to stay out of conflict and also forget about getting involve with anyone or even anything else more.

This way I'm a better friend/acquaintant or student to everyone!

Which sums up to FOCUS-ing in my priorities!

OHOH OHHHHH O ' lvls!

L1R4 < 13, DISM in SP!

Here I come! =X

Tag REPLIES!

Yo YO!

So I went out and grabbed some NEW clothes with Lionel today!

Got myself two sets in total! One long sleeved red/pink shirt, one recoil polo T and two straight cut trousers! Sounds quite little but it already total up to around 100 bucks plus plus!

OH Ya! Not forgetting today is the 18TH once again! Its been the FOURTH one now already. I still remember the THIRD one and time really really flies when things keep keep coming in!

And its SHARON's Birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO!

Tag replies:

Hisyam: YO! thanks for tagging =)

Kaileng: LOLS! Punky kid, like outside u see all those "xiao ah beng".. this one is the extreme version!

Yeng Minn: Ahahas YEA! Thanks :D Mayb I will wear it the next time! xD

Qin Hui: Yea! Sort of got over it after some sleep and getting out of normal routine! LG, Life's Good :D

Lionel: Yea! Ernest! You just saw him this morning =X

Yiting: YOYO!

No Sweat

Hey World!

Back for another round of short updates here and there!

Well, as you know it... Its SCHOOL time now and when its school time, things would usually be monotaneous and even repetitive! The feeling of doing the same thing over and over again. The endless HOMEWORKs, TESTs, MOCK EXAMs and the lack of sleeping!

Sour Huh?? REMEMBER what we're taught in school? Make LEMONADE out of LEMONS!

"Hmm... What am I getting at?", you Wonder..
What I'm trying to say is...


"Happiness and fun is a matter of choice!"
You can be optimistic about all things, its just how you look at stuffs.
Some of the things in life, there's really nothing you can do about it.
Since there's nothing to be done, why brood over it?

Appreciate things around you and be HAPPY with LIFE! :D
Continue to complaint and be cynical about everything, you'll just get insanely frustrated with life.

And and and....I found out I'm actually missing out a lot in my house!

Actually my lil bro, Ernest can be quite a fun and cute company around!


LOOK!


My parents actually went to Taiwan and bought back a damn nice looking WIG! It looks really really really real on your head and its SO COOL!

Alright alright, I shall end my post here... Getting really less stuffs to blog about nowadays.

But but.... Here's whats gonna happen!

Gonna take lots of pictures during CHINESE NEW YEAR visits around friend's house!
Also, I'm going stock up my new clothings just for it with LIONEL tomorrow!
AND Here's wishing all

EARLY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!


SO till then... ME signing OFF

Gear Changed

O lvls results released today and I'm wondering whats it gonna be like 12 months later, when its my turn.

Now that school has started for a while, it occupies most of my time. While at home for that few hours, I don't really get to talk to anyone in the house. It will always be getting work done and coordinating stuffs.

In the cool of the night where things are much more quieter than usual, I spent time updating myself with some hot news online or not some reading. "Woa!" you say, spending leisure time like this. No Life huh?

Sometimes I get into the night too late because of "stoning" in front of the comp. For some of you who knows me, I don't really make use of my handphone to contact people and I don't have a housephone.

So I mostly stay online all the time and actually only 1/4 of it will be spend really talking. And you wonder whats with the 3/4? Well, I pretty much just do nothing and wait. Its really hard finding anyone at all. Its usually either afk, brb or take more than 30 secs to reply, then you know what it means la obviously.

Meanwhile, I would just think about stuffs and its really hard to get moving when you're in deep thoughts.

Now, when most of the people are also busy as well. It gets even worst, not really engage in proper conversation at all for a day will be possible. You then start to talk to yourself, in your head. Sounds silly huh?

One time I remembered telling somone about the irritating itch on my arms and I got responded this way ,

"uh huh? And you suddenly tell me for??"

I'm like "Woa, fine then".

Wonder is it just me or it has always been and will be like this. Oh ya, I'm not petty. I just don't tend to forget things if you're wondering.

Time's changed, Thing's changed, People's changed...

Wondering what drastic change will there be just one year later, maybe people around me now will be totally gone by then already, just exactly how it was like transiting from Pri to Sec.

And yep, like most of you quote me.. "Too bad life sucks, live with it."

Anyway, if you've not heard it. I've been coined or called as, if you will "Like to prove people wrong guy" or "Guai Lan" or "Over ambitious guy" or "Like to correct people guy" or maybe even irritating.

Good News then I guess. I made resolutions to stay low, ignore and pretend I always see nothing wrong with anything spontaneously, unless asked for or required this year.

To see in it in a positive light, most of what I thought will be useful when I speak, turns out to look useless to others most of the time. So its kind of pointless and it will only make more people dislike me.

Trust me, most people hates the truth and everybody lies xP

...Running my way to O Levels alone then

Soft to Hard Copy

Hey Guys!

Back to update a bit about the week!

We're having CCA day open house this saturday, which is tomorrow!

I managed to get the Choir T-shirt printed just in time and from the coordinating to the distributing, things went quite smooth.

The person actually delivered it to my school!

So here it is!

From idea -> coordination -> construction -> production -> distribution !

However, there are some miscommunication in the sizing and pretty much everyone got one size bigger than their suppose to have!

I got the Size M, I'm suppose to be wearing S. Its according to the standard male size table, which I really had no idea about.

So really really SORRY to those I've misguided the shirt size about =X

I got the wrong size myself xD

Till then ME signing OFF =)

Seriousness Restoration

Hey Guys!

AWED or DISGUESTED by the previous post on VLOGGING??

The all true and real GERALD is back, and currently switched to SERIOUS-mode!

Good news and Bad news to ALL today!

Here's the explanation:

One of the clones of me in the 11th dimension of the parrallel universe decided to cross our 4-dimensional REALITY world!

He was really VERY different from 4-Dimensional "ME" as you know it and he realised he stepped in the wrong dimension and had maybe made a fool of himself or maybe to some an entertainer I guess.

Well, he's now gone for GOOD and NEVER will be coming back!

Okay! Really back to reality now!

I'm kind of packed with school stuffs nowadays and really for those of you who adds me in MSN will now realise I seldom appear Online. Normally, I will always be online and really stare at the computer screen all day long. Ask me what's really that interesting about computing? I also don't really have an answer for you.

I'm trying to as much as possible switch to focus on studies instead of other less important stuffs.
So you won't see me updating much on the HAPPENINGS of my weekends or any other event as well. Afterall, staying at home is the best treat you can get after a long week at school!

Anyway..... to sidetrack

Here's a REALLY good food/snack recommendation for studying!

Till then ME Signing OFF =X

V-logging!

Hey World!

Its a free saturday for me yesterday and I was kind of finding rest for myself that very day!

As there's really maybe too much events and stuffs going on during the holidays which resulted in me feeling lethargic as well as causing A HOLE IN MY POCKET!

The day passed quite fast for me and I could say its kind of a fulfilling one!

Like I've said in the previous post, my parents are now at Taiwan. I got really bored

:: And I FOUND this !! ::

To be of my use temporary! So I had this idea of doing a Video-Blog (Vlog) quite a while ago. I've been fans of Psymansim and Dan Brown at You-tube!

Their videos are really cool! You can find them by searching their username right at Youtube.

Anyway, I went on and actually tried doing my own VLOG for the very FIRST time!!

I really do not have any idea what I would want to discuss about and I asked lionel for some suggestions.

And I thought... Hmmm, since there aren't much SG'reans or Asians Vloggers out there, why not I discuss just about it? About Why you seldomly see Singaporeans doing a Vlog?

:: SO I shall now present to you what I've done in over some time I have ::


OKAY! For all of you who know me in person would be very very STUNNED by now!! RIGHT!?

ITS TOTALLY UN-ME especially the EQ -part according to SHANNON

Alright, the amount of STUNN-NESS you have EQUAL the amount of effort I put in.

Like I've said if you know me in person, you will NEVER NEVER see me like that and its really just so NOT ME!

I'm actually trying to imitate both of my vlog idol style, Dan Brown and Psymanism.

Well, do give your comment in my tagboard or even tell me in person if you're too SHY!?

If you're gonna give comment like " Ahh lame lahz or stupid " or any cynical or pointless comment, really really forget it =.=

Overall, I think that Vlogging isn't really my stage and this would most probably be my FIRST and LAST, unless situation permits =X

OKAY OKAY I gotta convince people I know in person I'm not CRAZY!

Alright thats the update for now,

Till then me Signing OFF =)

First Day Of School

Hey Guys!

Hmmm ... Lets see, the first day of school huh?

Sounds interesting yea?

Well, actually it was quite a hectic day for me and right now I have trouble seeing colours properly, as a result of staring at HOT PINK for hours @.@

You ask why and I have to say its because of this helping out with the Choir T designing!
I didn't really thought I'm gonna do it but I did it somehow. Where I'm coming from is really to help yengminn and her com, quite pointless if I was to think I'm contributing to Choir.

End of the day credits goes to?? @.@

Anyway, here it is:
Front


Back



It was discussed in the practice today and I went home and get it together. Not really an good job done I know but its the best I can do in such a short time by today. Took me quite some EFFORT

After school today was the EC meeting, it was kind of short compared to the last time. I feel the place is not right for meeting like this, feels like whatever I'm saying is not getting in.

Next it was choir practice and my mum told me to inform my maid that she was suppose to pick my brother from school at 5pm instead of 5.15pm. But maid didnt picked up the phone at all @.@

So I have to rush back from school despite being pulled back by Choir and it was already like 4.45 when I reached Causeway Point.

I still have to rush to NTUC to buy Rice!! And the counter service is SO DAMN SLOW! Like SLOW MOTION people working!?

There's no more left in my house and my parents is now like OVERSEAS in TAIWAN! Left Alone to take care of younger siblings and maid. Elder Bro in PASIR LABAR? NS?

WOW CRAMP AND CRAMP!

The choir practice was kind of crap. After so many practices already its still about the same. Took me a while to catch up abit and still I think Conductor Lee was quite ridiculous.

"Don't repeat mistake! Its VERY STUPID U KNOW?!?"

WOW! I'm like okay whatever ~.~



Had been used by the previous 2 committees already and now this? Where am I in the position to handle stuffs like this, a nobody in choir? LEECHERS using me like I think it matters when it don't ;/

Happy New Year 2009

:: HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 TO ALL !!! ::